Ok so this hasn't gone like I thought...

Ok so the reason I started the blog was to be accountable and thought tracking my journey would help me get in control of my weight and the act of losing it. I'm sure it would be working, if I had been blogging daily and keeping track of everything. I must say that I have been trying even though I haven't been on here but today I found a blogger that made me realize that I can do this and do it the right way. If you want to be inspired then take a look at this blog http://losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com/ and you will be. So today is a new day and I'm going to make a heart-felt effort to blog at least once a day even if it's just a sentance. Go me!!!!!!!

EEEKKK, I haven't done so well at this blogging thing.

Update: Thought I posted this already and realized it was still sitting in my drafts. Well tomorrow starts week 3 of boot camp and it still hurts every day but in a good way. I know that I need to do it and it's going to be a long process. My trainer is awesome but he wants you to give it your personal best. Anyway, hopefully by the end of this I will have lost a few pounds and got a bit better at the workouts. I'll try to keep up with this better.

Well as you can see I suck at blogging and I suck even more at losing weight. Well starting yesterday was my first night of exercise boot camp and lets just say I SUCK and I'm so OUT OF SHAPE. I was so embarrassed and ashamed of my abilities and how I let myself go over the last 8 years. I was the slowest with the cardio and it nearly wiped me out. I have made a packed with myself that I need to do cardio every day. I go to bootcamp from 6:30pm - 7:30pm Monday, Wednesday, and Friday for 4 weeks.

Well as I was puking when I got home from the extremely excrutiating work out I realized "it can't get worse" so tredge forward. I'm not giving up and totally intend to keep signing up because this has to work right? I am also going to try to make sure I post regularly here.

As I sit here sore I realize that my kids need a healthy mom that wants to and is able to keep up with them and right now that's not where I am at.

OUCH!!!!!

Wow I am out of shape. I worked out for about an hour on Tuesday doing Wii Pilates and Wii Fit and yesterday and today I'm so sore. I'm going to get at it today at well and maybe work out some of the soreness. I've been doing pretty good with my eating. I'm like a smoker, I'm weening myself and today it's getting a bit easier. I really don't have a lot to say today so I'll be back tomorrow.

Day One

Well I didn't do too bad today. I had some raisin bread for breakfast, a turkey sandwich with mustard and pickles with some baked lays for lunch and baked fish, red beans and cornbread for dinner. I made sure the portions were not huge and no seconds. I worked out on the Wii for and hour and I actually worked up a good sweat. I forgot how much fun it was to work out using the Wii. It's baby steps but I know I will make it. Good night all. I need to rest my weary head.

This is where my journey begins.

Lets start with me saying I've never been a skinny woman. Up until about 6 years ago my average weight was around 160lbs and I'm 5'5" but I was happy with that. Well over the last 6 years and being pregnant twice in the last 4 years I've packed on the weight and it's not coming off like I want it too. I really can't blame the weight gain too much on the babies because at the time I got pregnant with my middle child I was in the Weight Watchers program and losing weight so I was heavy then. Now I'm at a point where I'm just miserable and discouraged and instead of bitching about my weight I need to get my ass in gear, off the couch, out of the fridge and do something about it.

Today is the day. This is my weight loss journey and journal. I thought to myself that I've tried everything else and now that I don't work and stay home with the kids I really can't afford any of the weight loss programs so since I got it on myself, I'm going to try to get it off myself. I plan to journal my activity and chart my eating habits every day and see what I need to change and do to get to my goal. My goal is to lose at least 60lbs and I would like to have it off by my 38th birthday, which is in August. After I reach this goal I will see where I want to go from there. This is totally for me. I want to be a better mom. A mom that has the energy and is able to play with her kids. They need that and so do I. As for my husband, he never says anything about my weight and he always tells me I'm beautiful, but too bad I don't feel the same.

As of today, January 25,2010 I start my weight loss journey I am at 220 lbs.